Story Of My Life

Unforgettable.

2011-08-04T19:03:00.000-07:00

Chapter 59.

Together.

On Aug 3rd 2011 to Aug 4th 2011 was the best & sweetest moment in my life.

i get to spent this 2 days with my baby gal.

I am so happy, yet feel so bad.

after so many things, i am very sure i am the one who is not mature.

hoping, after i go NS i will be more mature.

But anyway, i had great moment with baby that i cant ever forget. haha. =]

Playing popping cooking!

Look cute, but taste bad.

The prove of our happiness.

I wish from now on, i will only think of how to treasure her then changes her. i truly wish that for the best of us. =]

never in my life i feel so much love from someone else other then my family, i wish to keep all this love forever. cause it is so sweet and warm.

Baby gal, from today onwards i will try to be the perfect bf you will ever have. ^^

Holiday Trip.

2011-06-30T21:06:00.000-07:00

Chapter 58.

Kuala Lumpur.

Back in singapore!

Didn't have time to blog for so long, now finally updating.

What a holiday trip i had, so freaking fun & nice! When with Baby gal, calvin, syukri and kevin. 1st time took train to K.L, it was a 8hours ride. was long but is a experience u should nv miss out, inside the train, the area is clean, cooling, comfortable sit, BUT! is abit too dusty for me.

8am we took the train at tanjong pagar, took around 15min before we sit down. and by 9am we r already at woodland checkpoint. after tat, it was a 7h ride to KL. view was good, food was ok. but friends was best. haha.

Hmm. i don know wat i can still say, may be see some pic. since ppl always say, pic say a thousand words.

Tanjong Pagar KTM

Kevin, Syukri, Cavin

Train ticket

1st meal on train. ^^

Gone.

2011-05-06T09:47:00.000-07:00

Chapter 57.

Bros.

Its been so long i been here, didnt know what to write till now.

After yan xian gone, now jason chew. although i and him was not close, but losing a friend don't feel good. how i wish he is still there to kb or quarrel at me more. haiz, human sux. always treasure people when they are not around anymore. why cant we human just learn how to treasure every single thing in our life.

So many things had happen, had a great girlfriend, getting GPA 4 for my final exam, great chalet with class mate. but i the worst is losing another friend.

Sometime i wish there is ways for us to keep loves one around, earn it or buy it. in anyhow to just keep our loves one. too bad, this is life. there is a saying in chinese, "shen, lao, pin, shi" mean "live,old,illness,death" is a process of life, nothing we can change about it. =[

Haiz, to my family, all my friends and bros please be careful and do treasure your life and your friends around. no one knows what will happen next, say out all your love when ever you can. leave no regret behide.

Life, smile =]

to be cont.

Friend.

2011-03-25T11:06:00.000-07:00

Chapter 56.

Where.

Writing blog at this kind of timing, don know what i am thinking. i also don know what i am doing, i thought i have planned my life. did i?

What i planned after my study didn't happen or is i did not do it?

After baby went to china, my whole life of happiness is like stopped.

where are you baby, not even one week i am so xin ku without you around me. so hope u can see what i write here.

Phone having problem again, can things around just spare me a bit.

So need something to do to help me in this kind of timing, cause its sux.

FML.

to be cont.

Apart.

2011-03-20T21:39:00.000-07:00

Chapter 55.

14days.

Its been so long since i blogged.

1st time for me to blog early in the day. think is i am really missing baby so much.

Baby, how is it over there at china? fun or xin ku? got rmb to eat? rmb to drink lot of water. so many words wish to tell baby. >,<

What should i do? interview for NTUC storeman le. still waiting for call, now got nothing to do. keep on thinking of baby face, want cry le. =[

^^ pei her over night at airport before she went china.

Our pooh. =]

4am at airport T3

Before she went in. =[

I still rmb the eye baby look at me. make me wanted to cry, end up i didnt. i know if i cry it going to be no ending le. waterfall*

1st night without baby so not use to it. now 1st day wtihout baby not use to it too.

What should i do to make me not so miss her? =x

But I really miss you baby gal. (>.<)

to be cont.

Time.

2011-01-06T08:10:00.000-08:00

Chapter 54.

Fly.

Its been so long since i login here and write anything.

finally i am writing something now.

so many things had happen, broken - fixed, injury - healed. whats past is past, so let it pass.

New year, a new start. what a year i had with baby, so many thing happen. yet we stand strong together.

Spent so many things together, so many pic don know which to up load 1st and also so many story to tell. may be i will write all in here today. haha.

1stly and most important is this. our very 1st couple thingy. ^^

We bought it at Citigem, was partly our x'man gift but too bad, we both bought it together. so happy, but i rmb seeing baby the face, so happy and yet she don dare to smile out. haha. ^^ silly gal.

This was the real x'man gift baby bought for me. bear bear packing. cute ^^

& inside was this!

Love & care.

This is the one i love most. but it is still with baby, she doing the finishing touch.

Last night till 2011. ^^ we at raffle city walk walk, cuz we planning to go eat something new tat i don know which baby wan to bring me to try it.

Its this! Sho Teppan. So freaking nice. i love it so much, i went for the 2nd time le. going to go my 3rd time. ARH! cant wait for it!

After dinner we went to M.S. to find a place to count down and watch firework. lucky i am abit clever. i found the old place i use to smoke at. and the place was great! right baby? haha. ^^

Haha, think i end here le.

to be cont.

Sorry.

2010-12-06T05:03:00.000-08:00

Chapter 53.

A gamble with fate.

Its been so long since i blog. now i am blogging, in this kind of timing. its sucks!

I don know wat i choose was right or wrong. but all i can say is, i don think i have time to have fun in relationship anymore.

Since what we wan from relationship is not the same yet. is better to let go 1st ba, and may be we will meet sometime down or may be u will find someone better. but i am also human, i think i going to need time to help me getting use.

Fate have played us, let us find each other at this timing. which both of us is asking different thing from relationship. too bad we r human, if not i wish tat we can go to the furture and see wat we will be in 3years time.

I don know wat i can still say, i just wishing hard fate wont play with us anymore.

to be cont.

Losing Or Winning.

2010-09-24T07:52:00.000-07:00

Chapter 52.

Myself.

Its been so long since i blog, think got 1month plus le.

Was busy with study, exam, outing and gf. now finally got time to come here write something, before writting anything. i read all the past post i had, looks like so many things have change around me.

Now, don know did i change to nice or bad, good or evil, clever or stupid. most important is am i more wood head as last time? hehe.

This month so many things have happen on me, and let me know how other feels. wish to say sry to each and everyone of them, i know i cant just wan say things out at some place.

Don know wat to write le, think end here le ba.

Wishing everything in my life will go to the better.

to be cont.

Happy 6month anni.

2010-08-16T09:42:00.000-07:00

Chapter happiness, part 2.

Our Love.

YEAH!

Today so freaking happy. ^^

But things didnt go very well today, like the timing of the place we plan to go eat for dinner.
the place open at 6.30pm, we planned our time for meet up too early. end up we have to stay home in our format, hot and pretty dress and shirt. haha =]

So by 6pm we meet up le, cuz was really cannot tahan le. so hungry, so we went to centre point for some drink and snack 1st. around 6.30pm we start to make our way to the restaurant. at 1st, things was so funny. the menu was all japanese, but somehow we manage to know wat to order.

Unagi!

Tempura! baby love it.

Gyoza! wooo~

As u can see, we finish all very nicely. ^^

After the wonderful dinner we had, we went to orchard centre for some window shopping. it was my 1st time, the place look so high class and nice too.

As we walk, baby told me about the roft garden. so we find and make our way up, as we go. i saw the highest outdoor escalator in my life, its so high. i cant stand on my 2 leg as we going up and it was freaking long too. around 2min ride. wtf! ><

But when we reach to the top, diff story. Its so nice and pretty, can see stars and moon so clearly. may be it is clear sky on tat night, its so nice, i took out cam again and took some pic with baby.

And on this night we took a photo tat we love it so much, we name it.
"The perfect kiss."

Love.

to be cont.

Happy 6month anni.

2010-08-15T08:49:00.000-07:00

Chapter happiness, part 1.

Our Love.

Baby phang chin hui, happy 6month anni. (^0^)

Love you, muckiss! (>.<)

to be cont.

Counting down.

2010-08-14T09:44:00.000-07:00

Chapter 51.

Wish coming true.

Counting down to 16aug2010, the day of i and baby 6months le. (^-^)y

I am so happy baby i cant wait for the day to come, already plan with baby to go to somerset for japanese food. wishing hard for it to go smooth, nice and sweet. =]

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14aug2010, just now afternoon went out with sk, went to expo for shopping, TPCS for coffee bean and newton circus for dinner. wat a day, so fun to go out with this bro of my, LOL. but also very tired now. missing my bed badly, but miss my baby gal more. tats y on com to webcam with her, hehe^^. but she suddenly ask me go read her blog, but i was writing mine. haha. think she got something for me ba. =D

Just finishing reading baby blog, so sweet. ><
she wrote this to me

"To baby Boi; You might be r guy that dunno how to express yr feeling out ?

but i not r gal that duno how to express my feeling out .
There a word in me that i all wanted to you but i really dun have the courage to say it out . hope by writing here . can let u noe how i feel in you until now .

You might not be as perfect as other guy . but u meant alot in my life . i mean it .

Time already prove it . When I saw you I was afraid to meet you. When I met you I was afraid to kiss you. When I kissed you I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you, I am afraid to lose you.
To the world you are one person, but to me you are the world."

Baby jenny phang chin hui, i got alot of things and words wish to tell u too.
1stly, sry for all the past tat i have hurt u and being so stupid to show my feeling toward u. but i promise u baby, from now onward i will try my best to show u my feeling.

And... i am happy that fate have pull us together, may be people say you are too young or i am too old for you. but i don't care what they said, i only cares about how we feel being together.
if in this world there is one thing that can pull us apart, that will only be TIMES.

As time past, as we grown older. time will be the only fact to stop us being together.

So baby, i trying to say is. lets us treasure our time being together, ok? =]

to be cont.

6 more days to 6month anni.

2010-08-09T17:07:00.000-07:00

Chapter 50.

Memorys.

Times really fly fast, its already been almost 7 months since i know baby and almost 6 months being together. =]

Thinking of the 1st time i saw baby, at sch audi. haha. i still rmb the 1st time i saw her, i thought she was a malay. ^^

Miss the 10.6km walk with baby at ECP. ><

Dont know what i can still say about this relationship, come so fast, but until now we both still smile so happily. (^0^)

I was such a asshole to hurt baby at the 1st week of our relationship. Sry baby. T-T

Now is 08.14am 10aug2010, at this moment i wish to let baby know something.

""Baby, 1stly i wish to tell u. i am sry to hurt u in anyways i did, i was a asshole last time. i shouldnt have hurt yr heart, tat only know how to love me more and more. ><
i really wish u will be the last girl,lady or women in my life.
Miss jenny phang, i love u. =D""

Wishing hard i will change the way i think of life and relationship and start to love baby with every drop of my blood.

to be cont.

Baby b'day & 5th month anni.

2010-07-19T07:47:00.000-07:00

Chapter 49.

Happiness.

Waaa. finally get to blog le, actuslly is don know wat to blog until this few days.

This year july was the happiest time in my life. it was baby b'day and also our 5th anni. celebrated tgt at a same day. but unlucky things didnt go as well as we wanted. but things still went ok on tat day.

Wented to M.S. food court for lunch, then went to raffle city market place. but everything was close, then we went to bugis for some shopping at bugis streets. but when we reach bugis we went to arcade for games. ^^ think everyone was stress about study need a break to relax they mind. =]

After arcade we finally went to bugis junction & bugis street to start shopping, everyone was finding for wat they wan, but not baby. cuz this few month she having problem dressing up, alot ppl keep told her tat she look old in the way she dress now.

So i helped baby to look out for any t-shirt, skirt, short, jeans or dress tat well help her to look younger. we found some, but not really nice. in the end we bought nth. by the time we feel hungry it was around 9pm+, so i and baby went for dinner. but her friends was not hungry, so we went for dinner before them.

We went to tsubohachi for dinner, forgotten wat we eaten. but it was nice, cuz have baby beside me. ^^

Life.

2010-06-24T08:39:00.000-07:00

Chapter 48.

Plans.

Hello bloggly, its been so long since i blog. so much things have happen, but no worrys. is happy things happening around me, for some reason i feel is baby tats let me feel relax and stress free.

But there is still one thing tat bother me alot, is my life. i still don have a solid plan for it. haiz. im already 21 this year, still studying. how i wish like other guys can start working and earn their life the way they wanted.

Now, i am siting here still asking allowace from dad. feeling i am so useless for being a guy.

Keep on hearding from friends about some job tats earn easy money justs by bring friend into a company, but keep scare about is it fake. if is not, i may be missing a chance to earn this easy money.

Money money money, life is all about money after the age of 21. haiz.

No wonder ppl celebrate there 21 bday so nicely, its may be the last bday they can act like kids and have fun for no thinking of anything else.

Life, is sucks in someways. but i should be happy, tat i have a nice relationship life with baby jenny. everything so sweet and smooth.

Its been 4months and 8days, we r still going stronge. feeling so bless to have her. ^^

I wish my life can be much better after some times ba.

I will end here le.

to be cont.

Drunk.

2010-05-30T09:28:00.001-07:00

Chapter 47.

Yesterday was keong b'day. So many things happen.

Most important was, this was the 1st time I get drunk, and I show baby some attit tat I don mean it. Then hurt dao baby. Sry.

I don know wat I still can say.

After I clear up. Baby was crying inside her heart le. I was sad to see her like this. It broke my heart.

Baby, I feel so sry about I getting drunk. I say things I don mean it. But I guess u understand me right? And the one who make me drunk was u leh. Lol.

So baby, don angry or feel bad to forgive me so fast k? Cuz u know from yr heart all I say and did when I drunk was bu xiao xin de..

Baby Lao po, I love u. (^.^)

3rd month anni.

2010-05-16T10:04:00.000-07:00

Chapter 46.

Down and up.

Yesterday was i and my baby gal 3rd month anni, but this month anni was abit bad.

On the day, the 1st hours we jiu quarrel for abit le. cuz baby was still outside with her pri school friend bbq, and i was worry for her to be still out so late. but she was poison by her friend to stay out late. end up she went home at 6am+.

Then on noon, was abit angry and over worry for her to talk to her. it make baby feel sad and sry to be out so late, but i think is partly my fault too. tat i keep force u back home early, i should have think SG was safe enough for u to be out at tat timing and with yr friend, then we jiu wont end up quarrel le.

Before i went for my sec school gathering, i talked to baby and put everything down for her. don wish to see her sad cuz of my worry. sry. after the gathering, it was raining heavily at amk. have to run in the rain to get to AMK HUB, end up meet baby with a wet shirt and jeans. smelly nei. ><

By the time i reach Esp MRT it was 6.45pm, i was late. again. but baby was too sad to angry at me. all she did was hug me. >< sry baby. didnt mean to make u so sad.

After baby hug, we went to JL to find some perfume for me. cuz i was cover with a rainly smell on me, baby also bought a strawberry chocolate and pinky hair band.

After shopping, we went to JUST AICA which we both like it alot for out dinner and like always, we order alot of food again. haha. spent $31.60 on it.

looking for sunblock.

Perfume for me. =]

Strawberry!

hehe =E

making my jeans also wan take. >< wat u wan! haha.

The food is poisoning baby eye. haha.

hehe =E

She cant wait to eat. =D

eat so much lor. haha.

After eat we went for a walk and photo taking before we went home.

cute right. haha.

but this is ugly. haha.
Still sweet sweet like always. =D

End up we r still back to the spot where we both r smiling tgt again. (^-^)

I love U, baby gal.

to be cont.

Feeling.

2010-05-15T05:55:00.000-07:00

Chapter 45.

Happy.

It's going to be 3month tgt soon le. =D

hehe XD

Still going stronge and happy, also happy that i didnt choose wrong.

Baby, i am very happy when ever we r tgt studying, schooling, shopping, swimming, slping, eating, dreaming, playing, beating, running, talking, but most importand was living tgt.

=x

I so wish time we stop now, but i also wish it wont cuz if time don stop, our feeling jiu cannot stay like this sweet tgt, but if time stop we jiu cannot get old tgt and walk this road tgt.

=O
So ma fan right. haha. think is the love u poison me with is too deep le. ^^
even now as i write this post, i start to miss yr hug le.

(^0^)Y

Baby, i am so happy tat we met each other and u wass able to give me tat 2nd chance. i am truthly happy and touch from my heart. i so wish tat the one year wont be the day we stop loving each other le. ><

Cuz my life will be too cold and dark to live on.

I love U, baby gal.

=B
to be cont.

Hmm.

2010-05-05T07:25:00.001-07:00

Chapter 44.

Odd.

Feeling so odd this 2week. is not the problem between r/s, but just don know wat is it. >.<

When ever i am too free or bored. i will feel this. is like there is something missing or wrong with my life now. wat is it? do i need to ask god about this?

Anyone cares to tell me? >.<

to be cont.

Sick.

2010-04-30T17:03:00.000-07:00

Chapter 43.

Care.

Haiz, finally i can blog le. from wed until now i was so sick, having high fever, cough and flu. thought i kana dengue fever.

From wed drag until fri then when to see doctor, he also say may be is dengue, if by sunday i haven feel abit of recovering. ><

But yesterday was sweet too, baby came to find me. she r the 1st gf tat heard me sick and rash down after school. thx baby, i know u r tired yet u came down to pei me eat lunch and let me to slp before u when off. Love U, Muckiss. ^-^

Now, feeling much better then last feel day. hope fever wont come back again. but feel very tired keep feel like slping and easy to feel hungry and not too. haiz. i hate being sick!

Baby, i saw yr blog le. ya lor ask this fever to fuck off. all sickness too. fuck them all. then i can be hyper again then go out with baby. cuz she is miss-ing my hyper mood le. hehe XD. i wan eat popeye chicken, heard from bi today is half price. ><

Baby wan tabao come my house eat? but if i eat, think after it. i have to drink may be 5L water abo the heat sure come back. ><

Miss u baby.

to be cont.

The first tears.

2010-04-26T09:31:00.000-07:00

Chapter 42.

Be there for you.

Today was a very nice and also bad day for baby and me, she was having a friendship problem. which i do a thing to help, but only be there for her to cry on.

Today baby was so sad, cuz of her friendship problem. was meeting her for dinner when i saw her msg and get very worry, her msg look so sad. called her to ask her where she is, and heard the sad voice of hers for the 1st time. i was so worry, i ran to the mabuku japanese food court and almost fall.

When i reach she was lie down on her bag, the 1st thing come my mind is. she need my shoulder and hug to cry on le. so i did, i really wish it help her feel better. cuz there is nth more i can do but hug her and let her cry out. i was so heartache when see her tears slowly came down her face. even now when i think i feel so useless tat i cant do anything. ><

But after it, i try to make her feel better by buying the food she love to eat and it did! hehe. she was smiling again le. ^^
after dinner, i jiu fetch her back which she is asking me to let her go back herself. but i didnt wan, i wish to pei her at the very moment which she need me most.

By the time we reach, she was smiling and joking with me le. the stone on my heart finally is off le. then we took some photo tgt. all look so nice and sweet. =D

>< heeee =E

=D

Hope this kiss with heal baby faster. =]

Get one back. hehe! XD

Lovely!

The sweetest time we ever have.

The Most Important Date. =D

Baby gal, pls don drop anymore tears k?
it breaks my heart to see u cry.

Love u forever. muckiss. (^-^)y

to be cont.

Stupid Problem.

2010-04-21T04:16:00.000-07:00

Chapter 41.

Pls.

Will this stupid problem cuz us so much problem? hope thing will go smooth again. feeling very unwell now. pls don let it happen again.. ><

haiz..

to be cont.

The stay over, baby ver.

2010-04-17T10:44:00.000-07:00

Chapter 40.

How do u feel about it?

Yesterday was i and baby 2nd month anni, at around 6pm we went to someplace where bi intro de, is at Suntec City area. is a buffet, each person with one small little steamboat. with so many thing to choose i was lost, don know wat to start with. but lucky bi hold on to me, then we start our dinner. haha. =] like normal steamboat, we started with some crab stick, hot dog, fish ball, bean cube and meal. then be start to eat sea food le. lol. u all should see, when she start eating sea food, is like looking at a little gal eating ice cream. lol. Cutey!

before we start.

Helping bi to cook.

Lol, she love crab!

After we finish with our main, we start our dessert. it was so dis-er-pointing, everyone of it taste so funny, but lucky still got ice kacha. i self make de hor. still look not bad. haha.

Not bad at all. =D

hehe ^^

Don ever disturb guy when using phone on dinner table. =D

After it we went to M.S for a walk, then i plan to go watch movie. watch the Date Night, but we was thinking if it going to be a boring show again, cuz everytime we 2 watch movie at other place then leisure. the show sure to be bad. but end up it was a very nice and funny show, with a random story line. u all should go watch, its so funny until u can cry. lol. ^^

Xin fu smile. ^^

Smile forever k? ^^

The show ended at around 1.30am, so we went to take NR1 to yishun back home and bi is coming my house to stay over. otw back home, bi was slping all the way. so nth much happen, only with some funny dream body moving problem bi have. haha.

Slpy head. =x

When we reached yishun it was around 2.40am, but we still got a 15 to 20min walk to my house. i so wish i was rich, so tat baby gal don need to walk so far. haiz. but after we reach home and bi bath hao, we was hungry for supper le, so we went to tabao supper at CPNL. we all finish it around 5am, so both of us went to slp. it was so tired. yawn ><

Untill today we wake up around 5pm, everyone was out other then us. was hungry, so i asked mom to help us tabao. thx mom. after we eat, i went to watch tv, baby gal use my lappy for FB and twitter until night around 8plus, then we start do our face masks. haha. was so funny everytime we do face mask tgt.

After done with face mask and dota(me), nail painting(baby). it was around 10pm le, so we went down to coffee shop to have dinner with dad, mom and mei, kor was out. it was a relaxing dinner. then until just now 11.30pm then come up back. then until now i was watch tv and blogging, bi watching tv with mei mei until now.

Yawn! feeling tired le. >< end here le. nite nite every one.

to be cont.

Wishing.

2010-04-15T10:29:00.000-07:00

Chapter 39.

I really hope tml everything will go as plan, i wish tml will be a day tat 2 of us will nv ever forget. ><

Baby gal, i am very thxful for everything u done for me. i so wish we will nv old, so this feeling will nv change. everytime i think of when we grow older will things change?

God pls let us be tgt and nv be apart. ><

I love U baby gal. (^-^)

to be cont.

The stay over.

2010-04-10T06:57:00.000-07:00

Chapter 38.

Happy, fun, sweet and will always rmb.

Just came back from baby house, yesterday stayed her house for some planning of outing. =D

Yesterday around 4pm then reach her house area, we both was so hungry so we went to eat until very full. then i thought we can went to play bowling de, but need we cant, cuz need wait for baby dad to come back.

By around 7plus, her dad finally back. then we jiu went to leisure park for dinner and bowling. but otw to there, we then notice we nv bring sock with us. so bowling cancel cuz of this reason. ><

When we reach leisure, 1st thing we went was to eat the chicken stick. actuslly wanted to to try BOMB de, but it was so hot >< so have to stick with TEARS. then went to B1 cuz baby wanted to eat the sasuage but it was close, oooo sad hor bi. haha =D

Then we went to supermarket to see wat can buy to eat or cook, but in the end we bought something else. haha.

Then at around 1am, we start make our way to prawning. from 1.50am to 4.50am, for the 1st 2h we were getting nth, and i mean nth. lol. then baby was so sian, she try a funny to catch a prawn resting on the pumper, and she did! WTF right! cuz is like the way she prawn it, is so cheat. forcing the food right in-front of the prawn. >,<

But at the last 50min, i start to catch some le. using the right way. hehe. end up i cotch 3! she cotch 1! haha. and 3 from ppl working there give us, cuz they saw us catching nth at 1st. so we went to cook, but i am the one doing all the cooking and removing the shell for her. wat to do, i am a guy so i have to help her. =x

After it, we went back the home. both was feeling tired and sick, cuz both r pig and if pig don slp will feel sick de. haha. so after wash up, we both went to slp. i seriously mean slp, like lying down and K.O. le. lol.

Then we both waked up at around 1pm today, washed up then we went to harker to tabao our lunch le. tabao so much until we eat so full and both went back to slp right after we eat. haha.

We both slept until around 5pm plus, then i wake up. then i woke her up letting her know i going back home le. then she sended me to bus stop. and then we ended our stay over le.

Over all it was fun, sweet, happy and wish it will nv end. =x

Baby gal, im so happy u were willing to give me the 2nd chance tat time when i asked. but i hope u r not regreting about giving me this 2nd chance, cuz i still feel someway i am not doing good enough for u. but i will try harder de =] help me jia you k?

Love u, baby gal. Muckiss=x

Aprove

2010-04-06T08:12:00.000-07:00

Chapter 37.

Our relationship.

Lol, just came back from meeting baby. then she was so happy tat her mom and dad aprove us tgt. then she say my baby face cheated her and her family, sry i don mean too. haha.

But gal, i will prove them tat. they r not wrong for us to be tgt. =D
i will work really hard for us de.

I wont let them regret about this de. =]

to be cont.

Us.

2010-04-01T21:39:00.000-07:00

Chapter 36.

Still going well.

It's been 1week since we been back tgt, how u feel about us bi. still ok with me?

I feeling so much happier when we r back, happy with every single things. i trying to give in alot now is becuz i know tat u given in alot last time when we r tgt. i really hope tat rose u like it alot.

hope u like it alot. =D

And we do look nice tgt in photo. haha. so nice lor. =D

happiness face for both of us =D

K-box outing.

2010-03-29T06:28:00.000-07:00

Chapter 35.

Fun.

Yesterday went out with some of BR ITE ex classmate, when for movie, lunch and singing. haha.

Wented to cathay for a movie name, when in rome. its a love story movie, but also funny. overall is not bad. =D

Then went to city hall to kill sometime before going for late lunch at city hall - just acia. after it went to k-box which i was not really like about it, cuz i don sing. but as a friend so i go and join in and also was in promotion $8 only. haha. from 7 to 10.

After it we all went back home le.

Nth much to write, so i and here le.

Enjoy the photo.

I regret everything i've done.

2010-03-24T05:11:00.000-07:00

Chapter 34.

Stupid.

I am just too stupid to did all this stupid and regret now. i hoping badly tat, i am not too late to hold on to u, before u really gone.

From today onward, i don care wats my past, no point thinking it, nth will change too.
i will just do wat is right and wat i wan, now.

Trying and praying hard, i will start grow up with the thinking had.
And let this time be the real happiness start.

I will work very hard to get yr heart back. i will prove to myself, wats past is past and no more emo feeling should take over my thinking!

FUCK U, EMO!

shouldn't have started it.

2010-03-17T02:15:00.000-07:00

Chapter 33.

I Should have stayed alone.

How selfish i am to start and end all this by my own choice. it should't even start if i know i cant go on long lasting with u.

If this 1 month only brings you pain, pls forget about it ba. after yesterday night i do fell sad and hurt when i think of hurting and asking u to leave me. but i guess this is the best for me and u ba. since i know i cant give u anything from this point onward, is better to stop before things get more worst ba.

You were the one who save me from the darkest world i in.
yet, i hurt you, i left you but i loved you.

But since i make the cut, is better not to stick back right away. think let us be friend and feel how we feel for each other the road down ba.

If we r fate to be tgt, we will be no matter wat happen de.

to be cont.

You are too good to be mine.

2010-03-16T07:38:00.000-07:00

Chapter 32.

Lets time tell me wat i really wanted ba.

firstly, i am very sry tat i hurt you so badly at this kind of timing.
i don know wat i can still say to make u feel better. all i can say is sorry to u.

But thx for every single things u did for me, i am very happy le.
thx for trying so hard to bring smile onto my face, i will treasure every smile u given to me.

lastly, i am very sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry sry.

to be cont.

You are the one.

2010-03-06T08:35:00.000-08:00

Chapter 31.

Who totally change my life.

Today was the day tat baby aka jenny, who totally changed my life.

Thought it was just a format outing, meeted baby at dhoby. 1st thing we went to daiso, cuz we wanted to get us a laptop pouch. but didnt found it there, then we desire to go for our lunch 1st cuz we both hungry like 2 pig didnt eat for 1week. ><

We actuslly plan to eat Xin wang taiwan cafe, but was thinking of the price, so we changed place to Just acia, baby intro de. the food and the price there is not bad, but the service sucks! may be is busy hours, but the way they control the place really CMI.

Cute right. ^^

YaMi!

After it we wented Vivo, to another daiso outlet, hopeing there have the pouch tat we wanted. but sad, we found it, but was too small size. end up we didnt buy any pouch but some snack. haha. then we start shopping madness, but it was her who was having fun. shop by shop we went, until around 6pm+ we finally tired of shop. wented outside vivo to get some fresh air and rest our leg. its was acheing. >< Nature nice!

After resting, we went to bugis for our last stop of the day. we were abit hungry for some hand food to eat, so we went to bugis streets to buy some drink and food, then we were happily shopping inside there with our snack and for the 1st time i wented to the largest lan shop in singapore. its a very cool play for all computer gamer. ^^

hehe.

OMG! ><
By the time we finish everything, it was already 8.45pm+. so we call it for a day, then i sended her home. but we stayed under her blk to chat somemore, think we both can feel, may be today is the happiest and sweetest time we ever spent tgt.

But on 9.30pm+ we really call it for a day le, was so tired with acheing leg and sleepy eye. so sended her to her door step, and kissed good bye.

The very 1st photo of us. (^-^)

Happiness.

2010-03-01T05:37:00.000-08:00

Chapter 30.

Lifes changing.

My life had change so much from before.

Somehow, after we get tgt. my life, my studys is start to get better and better.
R u the angel send from heaven? but u don look like it. haha.

May be u will look like after few years down.

But i really wan thx u for everything u did and say. I start to feel, my life isnt sucks anymore.

Baby piggy, Muckiss. =x

Simple.

2010-02-24T05:44:00.000-08:00

Chapter 29.

Nice.

For so long, my heart have finally slowly warm up and feel the love u giving me.

So pls let this be a Simple & Nice relationship, and let it last very very long k.. =D

Last eternally! XD

to be cont.

Courage.

2010-02-16T08:51:00.000-08:00

Un-chapter.

Pls let this be the last one.

I have think alot and asked myself alot, after so long i finally have a ans for u.

After days we spent tgt for outing, study, dinner or just a walk. i feel still ok and relax around u.
and also after seeing and feeling how u keep on trying to make my life better, i finally get my courage and say " i accept u".

But i serious hope, after accept, things wont change too much. cuz i like the way we care and like each other now. so pls keep this way and feeling strong and lets be happy tgt k?

U know who u r, so i wont write the name 1st. when the time i think is right for both of us, i will write here le k?
And promise me, u should sad no more. ^^

to be cont.

Darker skin.

2010-02-16T08:38:00.000-08:00

Chapter 28.

Swimming time.

Today went swimming with jenny at yishun, was so bloodly cuz of monday the walk. but its was my plan to go swimming. arg! ><

So meet her at yishun mrt around 2.15pm, then went to coffee shop to have our breakfast, but she didnt finish wat she order and asked me to eat it. >< she bully me.

3pm+ we start walking toward the swimming complex le, more walking! ARH!
we stayed there from 3pm+ until 6pm, after the swim was so tired, cuz in pool timing keep play with her in water.

After we wash-up, we went to northpoint the japanese foodcourt for dinner le. today order wrong things to eat, eat until i feel sick >< but she had hers very happily.

On the way sending her back on bus, feeling so sick le, almost piuk. lucky, have her itouch.
for myself on the way back home, how nice of her, to lend me her itouch back home, cuz i forget to bring my psp out. ><

By the time i reached home was 10pm+ then wented bath and had my supper until now.
so tired. >< yawn. feel like slping le. so i guess i will end here 1st le, nite everyone! =D

to be cont.

Wat a walk.

2010-02-16T08:02:00.000-08:00

Chapter 27.

Longest walk.

On 15 feb 2010, this is the day tat i walked from ECP to Changi area. it was a 6.4miles walk.

On this day, meet jenny to ECP to relax. we 1st meet at kallang mrt around 2.30pm and taken bus to parkway mall to buy subway. after it we walk to ECP, reached there around 3.15pm then i was hungry so i eaten my subway 1st and she have hers too.

After it, it was around 4pm, where we plan to walk to the pasir ris. so we start walk, as we walk we have stopped to rest, drink and found some place in ECP tat have very nice view.

Wat is she looking at? o.o

Is nice right?

Reached 6miles and she fall aslp.

Jenny BF. haha.

As we walk, the sky slowly get darker and darker, then we notice it was around 7.40pm le. but we r at some place we don know. haha. so we just keep walking, until 8.15pm we reach "H" was outside the changi CC.

Worst was, there have no transport out. so we have to walk all the way out to the main road to wait for cab. after we reach the main road was 8.30pm, wth right. so far lor.

By the time we get on cab and reached tanah merah mrt, was 8.45pm le. so we call it for a day, then sended her back home and i go home, by the time i reach home it was around 11pm.
so bloodly tired lor. ><

After this time, no more walking for me! haha ^^

to be cont.

Not strong enough.

2010-02-06T08:42:00.000-08:00

Chapter 26.

I still.

So many secs, mins, hours, days and months, till now, i still feel the pain deep within me every time i saw other ppl happily tgt.

Haiz, v'day is coming. wondering how am i going to do tat day.

Drink? Slp? Play? or may be the day for my 1st time to go club le. ><

ARH! how i wish i can smoke all my past away and start a new life when i stop smoking.
anyone have any idea how i can restart my life? =\

Stupid hope. ha.

Aiya, so fan! Slp le ba, hope tml i wake up i will be someone else.

to be cont.

Air Show!

2010-02-05T03:54:00.000-08:00

Chapter 25.

Wat a day.

Today was the earliest day i waked up, around 5.45am. ><>

But after it, we went into the hall to see all the guns, plane engines, radar, everything about AIR things, and also don forget GIRLS! haha. joking. im not the one looking at, was all my friend. wa here wa there cuz of pretty girls. lol.

Hey, no shooting. xD

Around 10.30, we went to the runway to see all the plane. for the 1st time i see so many fighter plane, and i also notice they r not so big after all. but today the sun is so BIG LA! super hot sia. And the lunch they give us is like so omg lor. =x mango chicken. wth..

After it, was the air show le. nth much too, 3 fighter jet and 2 heli. So a boring air show, after tat went back le.
World flag. nice! =D

The pass.

The plane in the movie of Transformer 1. Cool!

Battle formation.

Best bomb i love!

i saw super shit! xD

Short guy cannot use this gun pls!

Such a cool plane!

1st outing with my group GREEN!

2010-01-30T09:10:00.000-08:00

Chapter 24.

Ah weeeee!

Today was the 1st day tat i go out with my grp. haha. as u can see, they like to call me ah weeeeeee~! rather then just ah we. lol. in school and outside same thing. so ps la, everytime they call me, so ppl look at. ><

And sian also, they found out about my emo side. ARH! my secret~ T-T

Meet them kind of late today, around 5.17pm at city hall. was planning to go for dinner together, but. end up i am the only one eating. ><
after eating, they told me they were leaving, so i was like. wa!, but ok lor. atleast got friend pei me eat dinner.

So i walk off alone, like always. ha, but jenny called me and asking where am i, they finding me. for once in my life, so many girls finding me at once. haha.
so i told them i was smoking in a secret area in M.S. another secret lost to them. >< but i also found out, all r ex smoker and the younger, was arivel. 16! wth!

After smoke we sended esh back to city hall mrt, after tat we went to mac, cuz arivel was hungry. but she only bought a happy meal. lol. then we went to the durin there, the roof to slack, chat, eat and feat the bird. haha. ^^
was kind of bored but is better then stay home at home.

Then we went to shop awhile and went to suntec donut factory for DONUT! wahaha!
its so long tat i had a donut from there. it was around 9.45pm when we all start to went back home.

On the way back the train was like bloodly full la, i stand until like a tree. hand up high and leg cannot move. >< so i drop the stop be4 yishun, cannot take it. then have to walk a the way from khabit.

Reach home around 11pm, was so tired. but still haven bath, so i ON the com 1st, cuz jenny was waiting. lol. but so sad, online le, ppl say eeekkk haven bath. so i went bath, then chat with her until now. now everyone aslp, left me wake only. as always.

Msg to my group: Pls stop ah wee~! around when there is so many ppl around. very ps one. i don mind u all weeeee~! went we in sch. haha =D but also very thx to u all, i nv thought i can be such a nice group leader to let u all so weeee~! me. haha. love u all. THX!

=]

to be cont.

Do as you like.

2010-01-25T03:59:00.000-08:00

Chapter 23.

Forget it.

Haiz, things keep happening around me. feeling so weak, and now i trying to us chance then u say wat don trust. forget it la, this is wat i trying to tell u, the one who is always changing mind was u.

I have already told u, i need time think and after think, i try give us chance. then u like this again. if u don have the heart then jiu don say the 1st word, then now like this.

Y don u just tell me wat u really wish to have or think?

Why now?

2010-01-22T07:03:00.000-08:00

Chapter 22.

ARH!

Why the hell now then u trying to come back, after all the words u say. y come back now?
after i close all the feeling doors, u now coming back telling me all the things u regret doing.
i cant help myself to be mad and lost, after so many things, i don even know wat i wan in my life..

Being cold and strong is not easy too, seeing friends around with their love one, walking the road we use to walk tgt, doing the things tat we use to do tgt. It's not easy.

I am happy to heard tat all the past we had, u r happy to have. but now, after so many things, i cant help myself to be numb of all this. i cant trust anyone, not even my brother now.

In school, i always feel alone, home i feel the same. every night i cry, y must i always feel this way, if i am meant to be alone wat's the point bringing me here.

Even now as i write this, im so lost, i don even know wat i am writing.

Msg for u: girl, if u really wan us back.
i only have one request, don try to change me.

Can u?

Promise myself.

2010-01-18T15:56:00.000-08:00

Chapter 21.

From now on.

From today 18/01/2010, i, perkangwei, will change from the lazy useless and emo guy to a grown up or man. =]

to be cont.

Going on.

2010-01-17T00:47:00.000-08:00

Chapter 21.

Life.

Haiz, so boring and so fan. don know wat to write, just too nth better to do..

The road i walking on now, is it right or wrong? being weak is better then wat i trying to be now?

Can anyone tell me? who should i be to make me a perfect person in this world?

CALLING FOR HELP!

to be cont.

Is it u?

2010-01-16T11:12:00.000-08:00

Chapter 20.

Another wrong feeling?

I don know can i trust how i feel again, is it u?

Will u be the one tat will stay with me till the end of my time or is it a fault alarm again?
before it start, lets think clearly before, is too late.

Hmm, y at this kind of timing. then the people tat kind me will start to come out 1 by 1? am i a toy to the hand of destiny? so many question yet, no ans is coming from it. haiz.

Is there something or someone can show me the way to my door of happiness?

to be cont.

New change.

2010-01-15T05:49:00.000-08:00

Chapter 19.

Diff person.

Today, is the 1st day of my changing over. went to sch on time, done my work on time, and also back on smoking.

Today may be also the only day tat i ever say so less word, but start to like it. tired of saying word tat is useless or pointless.

Now, the man within me is starting to awaken.

Go on for me! Let's make this a turning point of my life. scare no one and to nth in this bloodly world.

ALL THE WAY!

to be cont.

My way of a man.

2010-01-14T06:38:00.001-08:00

Chapter 18.

Man.

Getting enough hurt from all the past i had, and the word u telling me. if this is the way u wish to live yr life, then so be it. i will not force anyone or anything le, give up on r/s. feeling so pointless to keep on feeling so sad and hurt for thing tat is useless in life.

From a boy to a guy, from a guy to a loner, from loner to a care giver, and now from a care giver to a man who feel numb le.

From now on, i will slowly change myself to be more cold heart. getting enough of all this shit feeling of love, i will not ever cry for this feeling anymore and this word "love" will nv come out from me anymore.

But friend, if u all is in a r/s now. don give up, atleast u all had the chance to love someone. don let it go, one day may be u cant even care the person u wish to care le.

Jiayou to all my friend, in the r/s u all in.

Last long!

to be cont.

Breaking down.

2010-01-10T17:36:00.000-08:00

Chapter 17.

Ending.

Have been sick for 2week plus le, think my body is at its limit le. sooner or later will offline le. just wan say thing out,

Kwok, kwang, jin ru, nicholas,sin kiat, jeremy, mor, zhang xian and to all my friend : thx for being around for me, u all r really good friend of my. if one day i really go without saying, sry guys.

Winnie : hey pig, u do take care of yrself k. i think i cant take care u le, sry about our past, don mean to give u such a bad one and do last long with yr boi boi k. all the best for study! oig!

Jose : Bi, stop thinking about past, things is nv too late but for me now. no time to go back le, don get so upset about the regret we had k. must take care and look far on yr life, yr design one day will become the best in the world de. Jia you.

Serine : i don know y i keep saying about us, we had a bad end, bad restart and a very bad goodbye. i hate my way of thinking too, no matter how much i say i hate u. the one i think of most was u, since u r the 1st girl i hold on to. but now, guess there is no way of going back to the past we had le. u take care too k. wish u find yr happiness soon. HERSonly.

Family : sry for being such a useless person, hope i will become a better person next life ba.

to be cont.

Misunderstanding.

2010-01-08T04:26:00.000-08:00

Chapter 16.

Wtf.

Yesterday when on the way to sch, got a call from SC teacher. telling me to find him later, got thing need to talk. i was lost, so went to find him asap. went to office to a room, then he tell me wat really happen.

It was a misunderstanding between me and my friend"a girl", then after all he say, i told him everything wat happen. cuz the story tat girl saying was not true, and cuz of this fake story one of my friend almost got beat up my the "girl" ex.

Was so fucking angry, y my friend nv tell me wat happen when i was in class. so i went back class to ask him wat really happen to him, wat i get from him was, 5guy went to question him about the outing with tat girl, and almost beat him up. FUCK UP MAN!

Hey this msg is for the guy, if u all wan fight come find me, be a man and fight 1 on 1. and u guy got think anot, only believe wat tat girl say. now i here tell u guys, wat she say is all fake. if u all still don think and still wan find problem, my warning is better kill me if not i will get u all back.

I don wish to do so kids, but if u all just wan have fun playing around. then come head to head. i don give a shit le.

And for the girl, u better change yr thinking. if not one day u sure get killed cuz of it, don say things tat is not true and try get ppl into problem. get this into yr mind!

to be cont.

Mor b'day.

2010-01-05T12:13:00.000-08:00

Chapter 15.

Happy b'day!

Today was sick, so nv went to sch. slpt until 5plus then wake up. right after wash up, didnt drink or eat anythign jiu started use com until kor came back, was around 6.30pm.

Then he asked me if wan go along dinner for Mor b'day, so went for dinner tgt at blk 228 coffee shop. 19ppl eating tgt, so look like the shop food is free over there. lol.

And the stall still give us free dessert.

group 1.

group 2.

After dinner, went to mos-ta-far walk walk, and find something to give him for his 21 b'day. then as planned, we went back meet him without he knowing, giving him 2nd round of suprise, he almost cry. haha.

waiting the right timing. XD

is he wishing or praying?

Top photo of the day.

T.O.R group photo!

Kind of lost word to say, but photo say more words. =D

to be cont.

Mom b'day.

2010-01-02T09:55:00.000-08:00

Chapter 14.

Happy b'day Mom.

Today is mother bday, as planned we r going to had a small bbq outside the door step. so today i waked up early to get all the raw food and tools.

Went to blk 800+ there, bought some sea food, chill, butter, mushroom and drink. total was $35+
lucky home got left alot of bbq tools, if not sure very exp de.

After tat was around 5.45pm le, so quickly wented home to start everythings.

new idea right! ^^

COOK!

Started the bbq at around 6pm plus, then around 7.45pm get a call from dad, saying he will be back home cuz of some car acci. lucky nth happen to him, then he reached home around 8.30pm and bought some beer back.. YEA! haha.

=D

My sister sure can drink.

So hungry i can eat my tripods.

how sweet of them right. ><

Tat's about it, ended bbq around 11pm and 2nd round for tml. YAHOOOOOOO!

to be cont.

New year count down!

2010-01-01T02:00:00.000-08:00

Chapter 13.

Last day of 2009.

Yesterday was the last day of 2009, wented out with TOR to sentosa. was waiting z.x to ride me. waited until 7pm he then came. on the way down to vivo to meet them the time, when leaving yishun. we were waiting red light, then suddenly the whole car feel like kana hit from behind. but when z.x when to check both car was ok, weird. ><

When we reached vivo, we went to harbourfront inter the haker eat. after it went in to sentosa le. 1st was slacking at a beach i forget the same. then start drink abit, then we went to Coast to meet up the rest.

We reached there around 11.58pm, lucky there is not much ppl.. then when it hit 12am. there's firework, taken alot of photo of it. but was using my friend cameras. so no pic for now. ><

After it we went to walk awhile, then went back home le. it is fun but sad too, cuz went out with all the guy tat bring their gf only i alone. "the cameras man". =[

to be cont.

Unhealed SP.

2009-12-26T08:18:00.000-08:00

Un-chapter.

Restart.

Haiz, don know wat to write. but so feel like writing something today, cuz of the show i just watch finish. "Proposal Daisakusen & Absolute Boyfriend"

After watch all this, i then know. im still not good enough for girls, the guys inside is much better then me so much. haiz.

If i also get a chances to go back to the past to redo wat i regret doing, i will start my life all over again. my life is full of regret, even now. regret about something i did and say this few days. ><

Wat a ma fan guy i am, so many regret.

Now all i wish is, don wan to do or say anything tat i will regret le.

to be cont.

X'man.

2009-12-25T00:37:00.000-08:00

Chapter 12.

Relax.

Today, waked up late for outing. reached bugis at 1.45pm, then waited for the rest untill around 2.30pm. went to eat zuo-chao at bugis area, cheap and nice!

wahaha! =D

After tat the girls wanted to go arcade to play jabcube, something like tat de. haha. then we went to take neoprint, in the mach i taken some photo using the lighting. IS SO NICE!

See! >< Then we went to bugis the new shopping mall, went to window shop and went to had some snack and drink.

Don cry fishy. ><

Xiu zhen de. >< After tat we went to B.J. walk awhile again, then around 8 plus, everyone was hungry le. so we went back to the same place, where we had our snack, to had our dinner.

Alot wor!

After dinner, we went up to the sky roof to take some photo.

haha, don have me =x

Then we actually going to end the day le, but rei give idea go bottle tree park to drink and prawning. so we wented there drinked, and prawn. haha.

Vodka lime.

After drink, it was around 2.30am le.. so some of us ended the day and went home, some went for supper.

So this is how i and my friend count down for x'max, haha. boring for some ppl. but this is how i like it. relax and not noisy. =x

to be cont.

Holiday 1st outing.

2009-12-23T07:03:00.000-08:00

Chapter 11.

Out.

Haiz, wat a boring holiday. stayed home so long, finally get to go out.

It was kwok b'day, planning was, go kenny roger for dinner, then after tat movie. but today everyone was late for outing, so changed the plan to just dinner. lucky, jin ru given a idea to buy cake for him. so we did, haha..

But for the way how we start the song for his b'day is new to me.. haha.. we planned with the shop waiter to help..

=D

Kwok, rmb wat we all say lei.. u r bless to had we this kind of friend. haha..

kwang smile! lol.

to be cont.

Unhealed.

2009-12-23T00:15:00.000-08:00

Un-chapter.

Why.

Why? until now im still all alone. Is the destiny of my life is to be alone always? if it's like this forever, then wats the point for me to be in this world. Wats the point of living in this world when there is nth for me to live for.

Which ass hole in the world of fate, put me here? wat did i did to get this kind of life.

Or am i just not good enough to have someone i love around me?

to be cont.

Regret.

2009-12-17T02:48:00.000-08:00

Chapter 10.

Lame, kids.

Yesterday was so tired and fuck up..

waked up early, so msged fax and wendy see if they wan go out, but wendy were slping, so waited until she wake.

But after knowing they planning go she-sha, i kind of no mood. cuz i no much money to spent le..

At 1st i told fax other kind of story, don wan later they say treat me..
but later fax told me it was cheap all tat, then i went down..

But 1st reach there still need see wendy face, and tat kind of word she say to me..
came down without my parent allow, she still give me this kind of attit.. So wish to go back home at the time..

But after fax reach is was ok le, went to she-sha..

After she-sha we plan to go MS mac, but by the time we reach it was close.. then we change to city hall mac..

Reached there before we even can order yet, one of her friend almost got into a fight.. i try to stop, but he don listen.. kids.. >< as friend try to stop him, he like this back.. give up~

End up, i no mood to eat le.. waited the train untill 6.30am, then reached home around 7.30am.. bath and eat breakfast and went to slp le..

Such a shit day, Zzz~

to be cont.

Fun

2009-12-17T02:35:00.000-08:00

Chapter 9.

Smile.

Today was my ah gong 100days, but i was aslp.. haha.. but was wake by my aunte, uncle.. so waked at around 11am..

Was so boring and tired, so watched some very old vcd..

After tat it was around 1.30pm, so went to bath and get ready all tat.. after i bath, get a call from wendy, telling me tat she just woke up.. so as it was, msged kwok, telling him to meet late..

It's 3pm le, meet wend at yishun mrt, then was on our way down to city hall to meet kwok le.. but kwok came later then us, so was making fun of him tat late comer will treat for dinner.. haha.. but actually it was i and wendy late, haha ^^

Lucky today we had alot of idea going where to do and chill, 1st we went to buy movie ticket for 6.15pm de.. then we went to subway for lunch, it was my 1st time and it's nice! ^^ so wan to eat it again..

After subway we went to the pen-ni-sou-le, wendy need to buy a jeans for work, after tat we went to watch the show.. it was nice too ^^

After the show we went to dui-rain there the roof to slack and taken alot of photo =D

After chilling and all the photo taking, it was around 10.30pm le, so we call it for a day, but as we walk out, we taken some more photo, haha, PHOTO MADNESS! ^^
then we really went home..

Fetched wendy home time, heard some of her words.. but after saying, she still look the same.. ><

Now i just hope she will be fine with her family, and quickly grow up the way she think.. ^^

to be cont.

Forgotten.

2009-12-17T02:29:00.000-08:00

Chapter 8.2.

Apart.

Today went to find her again, she was alone at home sad..

So went to find her and pei her, don wish to see her so sad cuz of me.. nv thought she leaveing sg, will let her so sad..

Now, just hope she will slowly put down and just take us back as friend forever..

Msg to winnie: sry, nv thought making u to forget me will be ever be so hard for u..
But we r always will be friend k? don sad le, he will give u happiness de.. take care =D

to be cont.

Forgotten.

2009-12-05T07:34:00.000-08:00

Chapter 8.

Apart.

Today went to dhoby with winnie, it was our last outing as she told me, she is leaving singapore and not coming back anymore..

We went to watch New moon 3.10pm show, but we reached abit early.. so we went to walk abit, then she told me she watched.. i was angry when she told me, but she say she wanted to watch again.. so i believe it..

As we were waiting, we chat and some very small little quarrel, cuz of her saying stupid things.. "u better stop saying stupid thing before i really angry at u."

The show was around 2h30min, it was a nice show.. my kind of show, cry in the mid of it... ><

After the show it was late, already 6pm.. so i sended her home, reached hougang it was raining, so i pei her walk home and it was our very last goodbye.

the last photo i taken for u..

Msg to winnie: Piggy, when u went to NZ rmb to take care k.. i will nv ever forever u this friend and our past..
cuz until now u r the only one who is truly and honestly nice to me, and always rmb this... u own me nth now, we r even..

To be cont.

Change.

2009-12-03T11:13:00.000-08:00

Chapter 7.

Mistake.

Was late for lesson today, cant wake up in time ><
went for afternoon lesson only with a moody head, worst is the next day i having a maths exam..

Forced myself to do the bloody maths tat i hate most, and get in something in my mind..
if not exam i sure cant make the cut.. ><

Today was jeremy b'day too, he asked me to be the cameras man.. so i did, as i like it too.. haha.. whole party i was taking photo photo and photo.. haha..
end up taken 155pic.. WOW! record!

Haha, and i also get to take some pic with the 1st girl i liked.. haha..

Yawn!.. ending here now.. ><

To be cont...

Care giving.

2009-12-02T08:42:00.000-08:00

Chapter 6.

Piggy.

Today was so tired, have to wake early to meet up for aeroplane project.. ><
i was late for the meet up, so went i reach i start work without talking le..
lucky leader nv kb at me.. =D

After project went for lunch then went for F.I.A, as the same the class was boring..
end up i did finish the prac 1st, was thinking going off early to meet winnie, but some reason she only can meet after 5pm..

When i reach hougang i forget how to go to her place le sia, end up i just walk up and down to find her door.. ><

It's was her plan to go seng kang for MOS burger, something happen between she and her bf.. so pei her to go out relax and slowly talk to her make her happy.. after it have some window shop, then went to starbuck for coffee, in the end she felt better but still thinking alot.. after all tat fetch her home, as i was feeling very sick cuz of not enough slp.. she pei me waited for the bus before she went off..

Went home around 10.30pm, reached home around 11pm.. smelly, tired, quickly get a bath le.. then uploaded all the photo i taken today..

Then now writing all this, as only 1 eye is open..

So i will end it here..

To be cont.

Alone.

2009-12-01T07:36:00.000-08:00

Chapter 5.

Empty.

Today waked earlier then i expected, waked around 6.45am.. went to get ready then were out of house by 7.30.. so early, end up reached sch at 8.30am..
teacher haven reach too, so sian... end up sit outside the class sleeping, then saw Mrs lee"ah bu" she was shock tat saw me the 1st one to reach, Mr tony reached at the same time too..

So went in the class started maths lesson, after tat was maths class test.. i thought it's going to be hard, actually still ok for me.. haha..

After test had a early lunch break so went to EC room to slp again, untill 12pm went for lunch and tats is when i walk pass ex gf again, saw her alone sitting there, was thinking go talk to her, but after wat the thing she did.. i didnt even wan to see her look, cuz i know all is going to be lie again..

After tat, went for APA prac lesson after tat, today did 2 prac, so lucky my APA still ok.. finished fast, then was stone-ing at there, thinking of why until now i still haven get the right person for my world.. ><

Class ended at 5pm today and as normal, went home alone... as i walk toward the bus saw her and her friend, was blood angry with today fate.. y i must keep facing the one who cheated me so deep, worst was i get one 168 her 2 friend are right behind me.. i just acted as they were not there until i alight the bus..

Reached home around 6.15pm, get bath and clear my things it was around 7pm.. start to use com to ask friend about sat outing, but end up all was busy.. "emo" >< played some games with friend, also didnt went well..

Don know wats wrong with today, nothing went well for me.. it suck! then i tried to ask some other friend sat outing, non were free.. GIVE UP! suan le.. since no ppl free, nth went well.. i don care about today le.. Like now, as i writing this blog, feeling so alone,empty,hurt,bleeding and sad..

I will just end here..

To be Cont..

Stress!

2009-11-30T04:52:00.000-08:00

Chapter 4.

Boring. ><

Yesterday was so bored, didnt went out, the whole day was home resting cuz having a bad headache. slept early yesterday nite, but end up today morning cant wake up. think is cuz of all the stupid dream i had.. ><

Waked up around 11am, getting ready then left home around 12pm.. so boring, walk the same way to the same bus stop. today bus was so slow, waited so long for my bus to come..i end up reached sch 15min late, lucky today teacher was late too.. =D today lesson was so boring, teacher wanted to clear one chapter.. but lucky was teacher let us go early today..

Today taken 168 and change to 858 go home, on the way back to yishun the timing saw my bro ride pass my bus.. haha.. reached home was so tired, quickly went to bath and rest.. then i notice my bro haven reach home, he went to cp buy things.. i was worry for him.. zZz..

When he came back, i asked him pei me to c.p. again.. =] went there to tabao my dinner and some figer food for them.. on the way there get Ting Ting msg, she just finish work, tired and going for crab dinner.. how i wish i can go.. haha.. XD too bad i cant, then i asked her to go home rest and chat at msn.. =D So now is chatting with her, but also busy here she looking very sian now.. haha xD

=D

Think i end here 1st, she starting to look more emo le.. =x

To be cont...

New cameras!

2009-11-28T08:00:00.001-08:00

Chapter 3.

Smile =D

Today didnt slp well, was thinking alot of will i get my 1st cameras? ha..
waked around 11, then around 12 went to tabao my breakfast.. >< after tat, start to feel sleepy again.. so went back to sleep until 3pm, when wake up again, saw kwok sms saying he going to meet late for outing to sitex today at expo..

Sian lor, end up i nth to do.. watch tv, rot at home.. until around 4pm plus i tried to ask my mom about getting cam again, at 1st she nv say a thing... after tat she say don buy over $400 de.. WOO!, so happy sia, finally a yes! hahaha^^

So i went to bath all tat getting ready and get my UOB card.. i was on my way down to TRMR MRT meet Kwang & Kwok.. i was late again, but lucky kwok was late too... haha..

Until the time we all meet, it was around 6.45pm then went to Expo for the sitex..

It was bloodly alot of ppl lor, lucky kwok know how the shop goes.. so finding the shop i wanted was easy.. o.< reach the shop, was so lucky again.. the cam i wanted was 399, but i reach the sale girl told me now is 379.. wahaha.. get a $20 discount.. lucky!

After tat, went to changi airport T3 for popeye.. my 1st time XD nth much, same like KFC... but taken some photo using the new cam..
How is my skill? =x

After all this it was around 10 plus.. so i, Kwang went home, then Kwok went Club sia.. lol.. now only left me nv go Club yet.. wahaha.. good boy! (^-^)Y

alright i will end here..

To be contin..

Pic of S.C Outing for B&B.

2009-11-27T04:31:00.001-08:00

Nice body of my.. wahaha^^

S.C rock!

This 2 photo is i take de.. nice? =D

Nice view right?

Cute! XD

Cubby face of my.. lol ^^

So hungry ><

Stupid look of my.. =X

2nd day of blogging.

2009-11-27T03:10:00.000-08:00

Chapter 2.

bored."

Today was so boring, around 8am in the morning wake up for nth..
end up cant get back to slp, keep roll around on bed roll untill 11 plus then wake up for breakfast..

After breakfast, start to use com.. nth to do much.. just cont with my Restaurant city & and Happy aquarium,
then i went to web find some info about cameras, was thinking of buying the EOS 450D or the fujifilm XS1500, but cant cuz both is too exp.. i thought i was going to get my laptop tml, end up mom drag it again..
last week drag until now, then now say cant.. WTF MAN!

This is the one!

Actually was going out today with friend, today was nicholas b'day.. but end up heard wat was his plan.. I no mood, he plan 2pm meet up, went to expo walk until 6.. after tat steamboat at gaylang.. then around 9 then go prawning.. So boring plan.. walk, eat and play.. but at least i going for the prawning.. don know is it going to be fun anot.. untill now still haven get their msg and "YRS" msg too.. hope u have fun outside today.. =D

I end it here 1st ba..

Part 2.

Just back from Prawning at bishun, lucky today not very boring.. i was the cameras man of the day, love it man! haha.. keep take photo until everyone cannot tahan, but just my photo taking skill still need to improve ><

To be cont...

My 1st blog.

2009-11-26T02:26:00.000-08:00

Chapter 1.

Hurt."

This is my 1st blogging in my life, don know how to start too..

Hmm, let's start this way,
I nv thought i will ever start a blog in this kind of feeling..

Today i didn't went to school, was very tired cuz of yesterday SC outing...
i slept untill 2pm+, was force awake by the heat in my room.. it was so hot, tat i had to wake and take a bath if not i sure to be sick...

After bath and clean up everything, i sited down to watch tv...
after a few min of tv.. i was hungry.. so went down to tabao something to eat...
after eat when to use computer, watched something anime..

After sometime feel tired le.. but then suddenly think of seeing my ex blog..
she giver me her @, so went to see..

At the 1st page her blog, it was nice.. saw her smiling again..
but as i go into her past month.. i saw some pic i nv thought i will ever see..
it was some pic of she with her bf and at the date..
it was only a few month after i and her break up..

But this is not the worst, worst is was, past few week she still saying she missed me and wanted us back..

What is she trying to do?

Having a bf still saying this kind of word to me..
am i just a toy she playing with?

Once i thought she will be the last women tat i will ever loved, but this few week.. i starting to see, im stupid to believe every word she said to me.. >< May be i am the stupidest guy in the world. =(

I will end here now..

To be cont...